February 13, 2014 - The last email from the MTC!!!
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I am so ready to go to Mexico this week. I was able to really be myself in my lessons, I feel like I have a lot of the time been a "robot" like just done exactly what my teacher taught and left my personality behind. THIS IS A PROBLEM>>> I needed me! As I taught with my smile and with my heart my weird laugh and my broken spanish I was so much more confident and not only did I feel the spirit stronger I was able to simply be Hermana bauer not HERMANA.... I had truly lost myself in my stress but IMMM BACK!!!!!!!!!! :) and I am happier than ever! The blank stares and awkward pauses are gone and have been replaced with laughs and smiles and my own mistakes once again! My teacher Hermano Lund asked me as I walked into class Hermana Bauer why are you happy today? I replied, why not? He said that's what I like about you... I do not know if anyone else realizes it... but I am glad that I can bring joy and love to the table each and every day!
This week we had our last lesson with Cecilia an investigator that is Hermana Tew she actually evaluated each of our lesson. This does not happen very often and was a very special experience. I had the opportunity to look back and realize how much our teaching has changed and grown. I feel like even though I may be the bum wheel for a bit and just be riding it out for a little while in Mexico, I CAN AND WILL BE AN ASSET TO OUR LESSONS and I will listen participate and ACT on my promptings! I am so excited to get out there... to be thrown back into the water and swim! This is going to be an experience of a life time and never will I be perfect, but forever will I strive for it!
This week there was a talk on patience... This is something I need for myself... She said... Patience is the road to perfection. that's right if I want to be perfect I have got to give myself the time to be it! I have learned that here in the MTC and I'm going to apply that in the field! I am overwhelmed with excitement to get on my way! My bags are already packed and I have clothes out for the next three days!
Anything is possible with the Lord on your side! In my time of weakness He picked me up, in my happiest times he gave me a pat on the back, when I was content He pushed me to work harder. He will not let us fail NEVER, but we must invite Him in... Life is not easy and it never will be after each hill another one is near by.... but if life was easy it would be no fun. and I am here to tell you that the thing I am most grateful for that I thought I already had prior to the MTC, is a testimony of my Savior. I challenge each and every one of you to truly turn to Him, understand what he has done for you, and strive to lean on Him in your times of need. DO NOT BE THAT INDEPENDENT SOUL, His love will truly change your life, it has mine.